Heartbroken

I've just dropped my son off at the airport where he is flying to Holland to stay with his dad for five days over Xmas. It's the first time in his life that I won't see him at all on Christmas Day. It really hurts like you can't imagine - unless it's happened to you. Even though his dad and I split up nearly six years ago and we take it in turns at Xmas - I'd still always managed to see him on Christmas morning before he went to his dad's. Even a couple of years ago when he was supposed to be with his dad on Xmas eve and Christmas day, he phoned me last minute and ended up being with me the night before Xmas.

Worst thing - he cried at the airport when I had to let him go, he's never cried before, then he cried again when he Face Timed me from the unaccompanied minor lounge. He didn't know why. My heart broke and I cried all the way back home from the airport. I miss him already. Single parent Xmas sucks this year, On a countdown till the 27th, yes I know it's only a few days....