Blue Monday

Apparently today is 'Blue Monday' - the most depressing day of the year in the Northern Hemisphere!! I normally quite like Monday's as Monday's are my Tuesday and not the start of my working week.  Today, however, feels like an old fashioned, European Monday!! I don't know why, and I think it's unrelated to social medial telling me that it's Blue Monday!

Covid has taken the excitement out of things.  Hop on a plane to Malta for a cheeky, solo, weekend away; have a group of my friends round on a Friday night; raucous brunches; spontaneous, massive hugs. Bahhh! I'm done with bloody Covid!  I'm one of the most optimistic people I know and I love what I have, my life, although not perfect, is bloody damned good! We only get one chance at it, so you have to make it as awesome as you possibly can.... but I'm Covid tired and it's grinding me down a little today to be honest!  

My best friend in the world has had to cancel her trip yet again.  They booked last March, moved it to September 2020, then again to March 2021.... no point moving it again until we have some clarity on the world, the vaccine and the travel policies between the UK and Qatar.  I miss her so badly.  She's having a shit time and I'm not there!!  I miss my brothers and families, and my folks.  I'm pretty rubbish at keeping in touch with my family, we are all busy, they are rubbish too for the record.  I still miss them though!!! 

At least we are having an amazing winter so far.  Cool mornings and evenings but a beautiful 25 degrees or thereabouts, during the day.  January and February can be cold and miserable, I'm so glad it's not.

I'm running, biking, walking and stand up paddle boarding to fill the hole.  Exercise is good.  A hole created by missing people, lacking challenge at work, unable to travel and all the other things we cannot do right now.

I keep giving myself a virtual slap around the face, but really, I just want lots of hugs; I truly miss hugs!

On a brighter note, I've met some amazing people online these last few months, people who I am truly grateful to be friends with and with who I have great conversations. I can't wait to meet some of them when we return to some semblance of normality!

I'm still very restless, more so each day....a tugging inside me, telling me it's time for something new. Scary, exciting, confusing. I trust that something will come across my path and I'll take another leap of faith into something or somewhere new............ 

Much love xxx