Ms. Positive
Having a tough time at the moment. No real particular reason, lots of stuff going on, lots of small concerns which sometimes just all roll up to seem bigger than they are. I'm a positive person, see the best in almost every situation. The class clown, the happy, strong one. At the moment, there is nothing, absolutely nothing going on that I can't deal with but on odd certain days, it feels like I can't. I need to give myself a bit*h slap now and again and tell myself to snap out of it, this is not me. And it's not. I went for a great (fast, amazingly fast for old me) run last night after work and felt amazing afterwards. Later I cried. Paaaaaah, pathetic!! I know we all get down sometimes, I don't have a valid reason...
I do believe that everything happens for a reason, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and I'm strong for sure. I also believe in the power of being positive, you feel so much better for it. Some days, I struggle a little, like a normal human being. It's not often my friends around me ask me how I'm doing. They once said it's because I'm so strong and I always seem fine... I guess I am and mostly I do.
I'm almost forty six (4 weeks today) and I often feel about seventeen and that I'm winging it, and that I'm going to get caught out, by work, by my kid, by everyone and they'll all realise that I haven't really got a clue what I'm doing.
I go between I DO NOT NEED ANYONE and … I wish someone would just hug me and tell me it'll be ok.... haha I'm just a regular chick I guess :-o
On a more positive note....I'm getting better at headstands, I can't get up on my own (need wall or kid) but my balance is getting stronger, it's great for your core, and has tonnes of other benefits too, so I am going to keep doing it :-)
NJ is being amazing this week (maybe because he's grounded for the week and there is no get out of jail early clause). When he's amazing, he's kind, he's wise beyond his years and altruistic as opposed to regular pre-teen selfishness. We have such fantastic conversations and he's just a pleasure to be around, I love him more than anything in the whole world and realise I have jack shi* to whinge about.
Big love all xxx
I do believe that everything happens for a reason, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and I'm strong for sure. I also believe in the power of being positive, you feel so much better for it. Some days, I struggle a little, like a normal human being. It's not often my friends around me ask me how I'm doing. They once said it's because I'm so strong and I always seem fine... I guess I am and mostly I do.
I'm almost forty six (4 weeks today) and I often feel about seventeen and that I'm winging it, and that I'm going to get caught out, by work, by my kid, by everyone and they'll all realise that I haven't really got a clue what I'm doing.
I go between I DO NOT NEED ANYONE and … I wish someone would just hug me and tell me it'll be ok.... haha I'm just a regular chick I guess :-o
On a more positive note....I'm getting better at headstands, I can't get up on my own (need wall or kid) but my balance is getting stronger, it's great for your core, and has tonnes of other benefits too, so I am going to keep doing it :-)
NJ is being amazing this week (maybe because he's grounded for the week and there is no get out of jail early clause). When he's amazing, he's kind, he's wise beyond his years and altruistic as opposed to regular pre-teen selfishness. We have such fantastic conversations and he's just a pleasure to be around, I love him more than anything in the whole world and realise I have jack shi* to whinge about.
Big love all xxx
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