It's Been Too Long
Here we are, fast forward to May 2018, still in Doha, still loving life, still feel like I'm winging it most of the time..... Just me and my beautiful boy, which is sometimes really really lonely, but it's easy this way and it doesn't hurt and after seven years, we are kind of getting used to it.
So much went on in the last twelve months, stories for another time; but there have been trips to Sri Lanka, the Netherlands, London, Yorkshire, Oman (twice for NJ) and Sicily in between as well as 70 work flights last year. We made some new friends, and other friendships have dwindled or strengthened, we have good people around us that care lots and take away some of that loneliness, but for NJ, that hole seems to be getting larger as he gets older and he's growing up and seeing how other families fit together, function and treat each other.
I'm in Baku this week. NJ still hates me going away, even though he's 12. He flies to his dad's on Friday which is worrying him, making him nervous, and we are never really sure how it will go when he's there, or if he will get the right attention or if he'll be in a good mood. Tenterhooks until Monday at midnight therefore..... there was a long teary discussion on the phone last night about some men (friends) in our lives and how different they are to NJ's dad. It hurts me so much to see him hurting.
Love each other x
So much went on in the last twelve months, stories for another time; but there have been trips to Sri Lanka, the Netherlands, London, Yorkshire, Oman (twice for NJ) and Sicily in between as well as 70 work flights last year. We made some new friends, and other friendships have dwindled or strengthened, we have good people around us that care lots and take away some of that loneliness, but for NJ, that hole seems to be getting larger as he gets older and he's growing up and seeing how other families fit together, function and treat each other.
I'm in Baku this week. NJ still hates me going away, even though he's 12. He flies to his dad's on Friday which is worrying him, making him nervous, and we are never really sure how it will go when he's there, or if he will get the right attention or if he'll be in a good mood. Tenterhooks until Monday at midnight therefore..... there was a long teary discussion on the phone last night about some men (friends) in our lives and how different they are to NJ's dad. It hurts me so much to see him hurting.
Love each other x
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